My Story

13 months ago and 380lbs i started a weight loss journey that would change my life forever, or so i thought. I joined Pure Workout January 12th 2015 doing a 20lb in 6 weeks weight loss challenge. The premise behind the challenge is to put down a deposit and if you lose the 20lbs you get your deposit back. In my mind i thought, I would do 6 weeks learn what i need to and go to a cheap gym and utilize what i learned. Well i fell in love, i became obsessed with my progress and the rush you get when you live a healthy and fulfilling lifestyle . Before i knew it i lost 125lbs in 5 straight challenges. I was eating clean, my blood pressure was finally normal, i felt like i could take on anything. I got so healthy my wife got pregnant something that hasn't happened to us ever. I wasn't done yet i had to do another challenge i knew i could do it, nothing was going to stop me. Then life happened, we sadly lost our child in the second trimester and it rocked me to my core. I immediately turned to comfort...FOOD. i was still in my 6th challenge so i was still hitting the gym every single day as it was a nice release. However my diet was beginning to be more relaxed i started JUST having a doughnut, changing my cheat meal to a cheat DAY. By the end of the 6th challenge i was defeated I lost 5lbs and was brought down even more.the excuses started stacking up, I have been going too hard i need to rest, i took a week off and binged, eating and drinking without batting an eye, I thought i was happy doing it. 260lbs... I told myself i couldn't afford a monthly membership at PW so i stopped going for an etire month and it was so easy to slip back into old habits, i still meal prepped for the days at work but i would add this, i added chips for carbs if i forgot my rice, i used tons of cheese to make things taste better. The weekends were a wreck i started joining friends and family in eating whatever we wanted because it was Easy. 275lbs.. clothes are tighter im getting winded on stairs and i feel horrible. an owner of the gym messaged me concerned as to why i wasn't going....wow they really care but i said i can't afford it.  Then a second message and a third message trying to work with me to get me back, the thing is i could afford it i just didn't want to. I wanted to keep my cable so i can mindlessly watch tv i wanted to run away. After he and my brother in law contacted me continously it hit my heart, if they care about me this much why can't i care about me. 310lbs January 1st 2015. I finally committed back to the gym 1 year contract and ready to get back on track but my food is still not there im still eating like shit and struggling to see food as fuel again. Mid January life happened again my grandma passed away from a very aggresive cancer, again i turned to food to help me cope. I am recommiting because i know i wont be around for long if i don't get back on track. I have started this Blog to hold myself accountable and hopefully help others with their journey. I will constantly be updating my progress so those who read this can experience what its like and know their not alone